Dear Dad,

This is my letter to you.  You will probably never see this but thats okay.  I just need to clear the air with you.

You were never around and you really still are not.  Your mother even made sure you didn't pay child support.  Your family just watched as you disappeared to play daddy with your other two little girls.  They watched me be fatherless.  Thats okay for you.  Its okay you didn't raise me.  You wasn't there for me.  You didn't know my date of birth or my favorite color.  You wasn't there when the first boy broke my heart.  You don't know how I tend to fall for guys who act just like you.  All you seem to care about is that I haven't been calling you.  When you completely stopped making an effect too.  You are able to kiss your little girls on the forehead at night.  But for years made me feel like nothing.  You didn't say I was but you didn't have to.  The fact you were never around did that.  For years I have felt like I was a problem.  That maybe something was wrong with me for you not being around.  To this day I still feel that way.  I still feel like I'm a problem.  You ran off and didn't want to raise me.  *sighs*

Maybe one day you will actually act like my father.