I sit by and watch everyone else living.  I pretend in my mind how I would be if my life was going better.  If I was social.  If I had friends.  I imagine a lot.  I feel slow.  Like how did I get this way.  No friends.  The only people who want to be my friend are guys who wanna sleep with me.

I feel like everyone is just off living these great lives and I'm alone.  Like I'm failing.  I'm watching everyone be social and I'm a fail.  When I try to make friends or talk to people who doesn't work.  Which makes me feel like a loser.  I can't do anything right.  I just feel so stupid.  Today was going so well....no I'm just horribly sad.

I'm cursed.  I'm just supposed to be alone.